Transformation is at the core of my work; through colors, shapes, layers, and erasures, I seek a world outside of my physical experience.
I am fascinated by space, not as an exact location, but as a mysterious place, an infinite place of wonder with shifting atmospheres and moods. Moving inward, I create abstract images: moonscapes, skyscapes, and waterscapes. These visceral spaces exist outside the flow of my daily life, for when painting, I enter a meditative state. Following my intuition and trusting when to stop and when to work back into the painting, is contrary to how I often exist in other areas of my life. I am a planner, a list-maker, someone who likes to know what to expect. Therefore, making work in this intuitive way stands in sharp contrast to other parts of myself. It’s the letting go that allows this work to come forward.
Paint poured onto the paper moves like a living being, deciding where to linger and where to resist. As I watch the colors and forms shift, I am seeking something I can’t always envision and I become enthralled by the not knowing, the seeking, the transformation -- the discovery. The organic nature of the paint, the way poured paint takes up space is mesmerizing. I can choose to follow the paint, noticing how easily it chooses its path, or I can manipulate where the paint goes. Sometimes I am instantly delighted with how it lands on the paper, while at other times I am challenged to figure out how to work the marks into the painting. As someone with a photography background, it’s exciting to work in this tactile way, embracing the tension between my need for control and my desire for uncovering the unknown.
I have always invited unpredictability into my artistic process, whether it be through an hour-long camera exposure or pouring watery paint onto paper. The more I work in this way, the more I find beauty in the imperfection and humanness of the marks.
I create in order to find what I cannot otherwise see.
This project is about the experience of the home at night.
My objective with the work is to transform the home, a place we are so familiar with, into another world. I am interested in discovering the drama and mystery in objects and spaces as mundane as a branch, a bedroom, or a half-eaten cake. Late at night, the house is quiet. Darkness can make us feel uncomfortable and disoriented, but it can also be beautiful and peaceful. I am interested in the subtle tension that exists between these two opposing feelings. Spending time in the darkness – your eyes adjust and so does your mind. It doesn’t feel so strange anymore and can be appreciated for its beauty. Everything is seen in a new way, and light is the connector.
The images I seek are more experiential than descriptive. The photographs are emotive, capturing a state of mind, not revealing everything. Although we experience the dark everyday, it always retains a foreign element. In the dark, places and objects are not fully described. The absence of description leaves room for our imagination to wander, for memories to come to the surface. We can seek an alternate world in the dark through our mind. The lack of clarity in the dark creates moments of mystery, of trance.
I am interested in the subtle mind shifts that happen in the dark, an unconscious place with which we are all familiar but in which we do not often linger. Photography allows me to explore this state and to sustain it. I am using the camera to find a world outside of our experience, something that we can not see in the flow of our daily lives.